Finish this sentence: “What I’m really trying to say is…”

Our host said – “This’ll be an easy one!”

The reason I like this prompt is it can take you down a wormhole that you didn’t know you needed to travel. The reason I don’t like this prompt is the same.

Soooo I’m late to the party (which I’m actually co-hosting, eek!) because I over-thought and over-wrote and now…

Anyway, what I’m really trying to say (with this website and all of the writing that it generates) is: 

A few nights ago in Chicago we saw the new musical Beautiful. Beautiful relates the beginning of Carol King’s career/life as a singer/songwriter.

Now, to back up just a scoosh:

When asked about what we were going to do in Chicago, Marcus told people we were seeing the musical, Beautiful. Then he followed-up with “It’s about Carol King,” and then, “She’s good friends with James Taylor.” I think it’s interesting that this is what Marcus shared because it showed A) How he connects people together via friendship and B) Also how cool he is as a 25 year old who knows both Carol King and James Taylor’s work.

Anyway, we chose this show because it’s one we haven’t seen before and also because we thought Quinn would be interested in it too, as a musician and songwriter. The show began with the character of Carol King entering the stage with only a piano on the set. (We learn later this is to replicate her first performance at Carnegie Hall.) She begins by breaking the ice with a bit about herself and where she’s from. Then she tells the audience she didn’t always plan or even want to be a singer/songwriter, but sometimes life takes you to places you didn’t expect. (Now I’m going to paraphrase the lines as I remember it.)

Sometimes life takes you to a place you didn’t think you wanted, on a journey you never thought would be yours. Then…that life is beautiful.

Us at VIP night 2So during this introduction my mind wandered to the parallel to having a child with Down syndrome and how true this is and that I should look up this exact quote so that I can share it on The Parent’s Guide to Down Syndrome website and Facebook page and because thoughts whip through the mind quicker than their explanation, I want to clarify that all this raced through mine before she finished the word “beautiful.”

Once the word beautiful finished from her lips, Marcus gestured to me with his thumb and leaned over.

He whispered to me, “You are. You are beautiful, Mom.”

Aw – C’mon! I mean seriously. Could there be a luckier, more blessed, momma in the room just then? At this point, I’m sitting there all teary and emotionally filled up and we’re only about 90 seconds into the show and I’m thinking, “This. Hold Onto This!”

Plus, could Marcus make the previous point any more clearly? I don’t think so.

So I guess what I’m really trying to say is what someone else already said, that whole journey and unexpected and beautiful wrapped up in a knot, thing. And the way I’m trying to say it is by sharing Marcus with you. Because, he’s really the one who says it, the most clearly, so many times.

Also, I’d like to say thanks for being here and reading and being open to sharing what he’s teaching me along the way.

For today’s bonus:

Check out what the rest of this awesome clan of bloggers really trying to say!

I’m going to head off now and get reading, too.

If you’re interested in the Loooonnnnggg version of what I wrote, In Which I Explain, click here. 


  1. Quinn Sikora December 4, 2015 at 6:25 pm - Reply


  2. Kristi Campbell December 4, 2015 at 9:17 pm - Reply

    The whole beautiful journey – unexpected, not what we’d imagined, but so so perfect. I love that Marcus told you that you’re beautiful. You are. Tucker tells me that as well. I think we may be the lucky ones.

    • Mardra December 4, 2015 at 10:13 pm - Reply

      Exactly what I’m thinking!

  3. Julie Jo Severson December 5, 2015 at 8:39 am - Reply

    Hi there. Nice to discover your blog. My brother’s daughter, Joy, 17-years-old, has Down Syndrome (and my sister’s daughter, Rosie, 26, has Rett Syndrome), so I’ve witnessed first-hand the joy these beautiful children can bring to the lives of everyone who has the honor of knowing and loving them.

    Thanks for sharing your precious Marcus with us. You are, indeed, a blessed mama:)

    • Mardra December 5, 2015 at 10:59 am - Reply

      I love BlogHop discoveries! Thanks for your note and I hope you’ll be back around. 🙂

  4. Tamara December 5, 2015 at 4:54 pm - Reply

    Nothing more beautiful than that, in fact!
    I love Carole King. My mom used to look just like her. It was eerie. In older age, it’s no longer true because they aged differently. Still.. beautiful, though.

  5. Robyn R December 5, 2015 at 9:31 pm - Reply

    This post is also beautiful. It made my eyes leak.

    • Mardra December 6, 2015 at 12:03 am - Reply

      Aw, thanks, I know they are prone to do that at times. <3

  6. Nicki December 6, 2015 at 8:43 am - Reply

    “Because, he’s really the one who says it, the most clearly, so many times.” <3
    Thank you for sharing Marcus with us.

  7. Roshni December 7, 2015 at 11:44 am - Reply

    That is so sweet! Your son is very sweet! 🙂

    • Mardra December 7, 2015 at 1:59 pm - Reply

      He is. He really is. 🙂

  8. Dana December 9, 2015 at 2:01 pm - Reply

    What wonderful words to hear from anyone, especially your son! I would love to see Beautiful…I’m hoping it goes on tour to my town next year.

    • Mardra December 9, 2015 at 5:05 pm - Reply

      It was a great show! I hope you can catch it.

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