Can Time Stand Still

I wish had a time machine.

One where I could stop time for just myself. I could work. I could create. I could sleep. And then, when I step back into the spinning world, I would spend new time with those I care for in a most enjoyable and leisurely way. Oh, I could give so much more!

In the machine I could learn! I could learn between the minutes to be better prepared for the next. To improve. To grow.

It’s the biggest cheat I ever wished for.

Dignity, Risk, Harness, Support

As for me…

 

To be clear, When I look at this view I am not filled with excitement or exhilaration. I am filled with fear and anxiety.

It’s said that fear can’t kill you…I wonder.

I’ve mentioned before about my father and brothers, they often make decisions pursuing pleasure, whereas I often make decisions based on avoiding pain. In fact, I wonder if we even process pain, and the memory of pain, in the same ways.

In the strengths finder application, my

Reluctant Hero

Solitude

Ever want to run away? Maybe that’s too drastic. There are certainly times for all of us when we want to get away. Maybe to be  completely left alone, but for me usually I want to get away with just my two boys, Quinn and Marcus. We do alone, together, pretty well. 

Even so, Marcus and I are apt to go to cities first and participate in the bustle. We go to exciting destinations and do something filling; not always, but often our location is chosen by something asked of us by others.

Quinn urges us to get away

Rear View Mirror

 

Looking Forward

In a few weeks I’m going to a conference I really enjoy. The DSDN (Down Syndrome Diagnosis Network) Rockin’ Mom conference. I’ll be presenting and sharing at several sessions.

The two other years I’ve been able to join this party, I’ve been the mom with the oldest child. (We always clarify, “Moms of older kids” not “older moms.” Words matter! Ha!)

I’ll be sharing this year about writing/blogging and advocacy with storytelling. I’m on a panel with other